Hello November

"Here are my promises... you have them in your mind but you are forgetting that you have the most important one already in your hand. Me. Stop looking forward without looking to me today. Stop desiring anything else but the thing you already have. Me. I am enough. I am all you need today."

Letting go of something you see to hold on something not yet to be

It's hard making choices. You look back and forth between the things you know and the things you feel. You debate between the tug of your heart and the safety of the known context.

It's never easy jumping into dark waters.

I'm standing on the edge of a 12 ft high rock, proudly positioned above a deep hole of a local creek. I'm the last one to go, as usual. This hot spot is the place to be once the sun has been out for a few months. And I reluctantly go with my friends to test the waters. I've seen people jump before, and it looks so easy from the bottom. People yell and cheer on the brave souls who climb to the top. They peer over the edge and go for the biggest splash yet. But I wait. For the last possible minute. Not to bring attention to myself I keep quiet but someone notices I haven't attempted the jump yet.

And I'm standing on the edge. Nervous for the fall. The splash. The bottom of the pool. The next step. I'm scared to let go of the ground under my feet. Something sturdy and supportive of my weight. This rock wont crumble under me.

And I wonder...is this how I live my life? I climb to the top and look at the view from journeys and relationships I've had. I've invested time and work and trust into these things outside of my control. And then I get the pull to jump. Jump from this place in my life. Let go of the person I have become. Release what is now holding me back.

And hold on to what? There is nothing but air under me the moment I jump. For those brief moments I flail my limbs to gain some sort of control over my movement... but it's nothing. I feel nothing.


Sometimes we need to leave the cliff that leads to nowhere. We need to jump with all our might and trust that we will land. We need to run into the arms of a Father who loves us. Let go to embrace his promises.

What is holding you back? What are you scared of jumping from? What is your false security, holding up your weight?

I jump from the boulder. Screaming all the way down. But I hit the surface and the cool of the water calms me. The way it just slows my momentum turns my flailing into a beautiful dance.


I made it.

And I can feel it.